Knowledgeable Doesn't Mean Wise Being

Knowledge is knowing that a tomato is a fruit, wisdom is not putting it in a fruit salad.

To All Departed

Perhaps they are not stars, but rather openings in heaven where the love of our lost ones pours through and shines down upon us to let us know they are happy.

Lesson You Have To Learn In Life and In Love

Be careful of causing people to get numb. They might lose their grip and finally drop you.

Stop

It's better to accept the fact that you are not appreciated than to insist yourself to someone who never really see your worth.

Play It Safe

It's not yes, it's not no - so we engage ourselves in this complex game of maybe.
If i said yes, does it matter? And if i said no, would you believe me?

But while while you are playing safe, I want you to know... that I am stranded... so let it show.

Life's Surprises

Life is like a box of chocolates. You wouldn't know what you're going to get. It is also full of surprises. Some delectable looking ones may be bitter. Some of the plain looking ones may be the tastiest.

Living It Up

Do you really believe in the old saying “keep your friends close,your enemies closer”? If you do, you are not living your life peacefully and happily. Having someone at your side who only upsets you just the mere sight of person is unbearable. It allows negative energy to flow in your mind, thus, affecting your disposition in your life.

If you want to live at ease, surround yourself with people who will add hapiness to your life. If you want to maintain a good and harmonious relationship with others, treat your relationship with others as if it is a glass, you have to hold it properly because it's fragile and can easily be broken. Once a glass is broken, you can never have it fixed. There is no such thing as repairs and maintenance for glass. The only solution left is to buy a new one.

Stand By Me

Never be dependent to anyone in this world because even your shadow leaves you when you are in the dark.

I Am Right

How will you know if you made the right decision? It's when u picked the harder choice yet ur heart is at peace.

I Can Be Your Asian Boy

Happily nEver After

I remember when you explained to me what love is. That it's more than just a feeling. That it lasts forever.

Then we fall. And it grows. Then it lasts... no more.

And I remember when you explained to me how moving on is. That when you want to forget someone, what you need is a new place, a new hobby, a new life and a new someone.

But I realized I cannot force myself to forget something because the only reason we forget is when a better memory has taken its place.

Then I start. And I build. Hope it would last.

My World in You

I am holding your hand. Touching your face. Kissing your lips.
Your body next to mine. My body next to yours.
I can feel your heart beating. I am saying your name out loud.
My fingers ran through your hair. Your warmth covers it all.

I am letting you in. Nothing more. Nothing less.
I am letting you see everything I tried to conceal to others.
What I've been trying to show to you is my private property.
With so much exclusivity.
For this is me. Here I am. Take me and hold me tight.
I am hiding to them because they simply do not understand.
I am showing it to you because my imperfection is overpowered by your love.
Therefore you accepted my whole being, even at my worst.
Where others are there only at my best.
So bring me close.
Never let me go. You got me and bring me to life again.
And then, we start to rise and fall again.

Sunrise Someday

It's just sad.
When the warm has gotten cold.
When all I can do is put my hand in my pocket because I know I cannot hold yours.

It's just sad.
When all that remains are tea leaves in my china cup.
When all I can do is to look at it as it dries up, knowing there's nothing left anymore.

It's just sad.
When my perfect eyesight has gotten bad.
When all I can do is try to imagine how beautiful you were back then, now that all I can see are just faded images of you.

It's just sad.
When silence has taken over.
When the heart felt smiles and music like laughs had both turned into nothingness, now that there are no words to say anymore.

It's just sad.

Haunted

I am haunted by your memories.
I am haunted by the times that we tried. I am haunted by the times that we failed. I am haunted by your presence and the very lack of it.

My heart longs for you. I fear that you will forever remain as my illusion. As my dream of questions and uncertainty. I want to be with you. I want to forget everything about you.

At this very moment, I want to hear your voice. I want to hear your words that one day, one day, all my questions will be answered. That we have both felt something we were both sure of.

You left without saying goodbye. No thank you's. No take care's. No I'm sorry's. No I love you's. No farewell's.

I still wish we never end.
If we already did, please let me know.
If we are bound to, please, I am pleading.
Say goodbye.
Stop haunting me.
Let me go.

Undefined

In the stillness and the movements.
In the words and the nothingness.
In the certainty and the uncertainty.
In the emotions and the doubts.
In the options and the choices.
In love and in war.
In crash and fall.
In hopes and dreams.
In faith and despair.

I can never really tell but I would like to know.
I would like to try.
I am going to smell.
I am going to touch.
I am going to taste.
I am going to see.
I am going to hear.

I am going to live.
I am going to die.
And on that day on, the undefined will be no more.

Constant Change

A constant variable.
A varying constant.
Oxymoron.

Skyline Pigeon

For to be free is not merely to cast off one's chains, but to live in a way that respects and enhances the freedom of others.

The World In You

I don’t mind jumping from one thought to another, call it inconsistency, I won’t even bother. Is there anything else more inconsistent than I am? Today I admit I do not feel anything for you, and hours later I’m hurting because of you. Tell me if a chef could be consistent on the tastes of the dishes he prepare everyday. Tell me if an actor could be consistent in the character he portrays. Tell me if anyone of you has been consistent about love and has been happy? I don’t mind being inconsistent, really.

With my love for you, I feel like the earth rotating around its axis, axis that has never been seen but believed to be there, love that is never tangible but always present. The earth rotates around its axis and I revolve around my love for you. If love is an axis, are you my world? My love you do not see, and the axis no one has seen. They go together. Mixed thoughts? But I know you get me.

I wouldn’t claim that a love not reciprocated is unfair, well, it has been said that there’s someone who loves more and someone who loves less. But have they forgotten about that someone who is not loved back?

If I were to discuss love with anyone, a day wouldn’t be enough to fill in with all my thoughts and feelings. Love, just like religion and politics, is a never-ending topic. I have once capsulized love into two words – same shit. Same shit I feel and talk about, same shit I laughed at and cried for, same shit I have been dealing with and getting rid of.

In this life, I have met several people who brought me so much joy, and you are undeniably one of those people. Ironically, the people who have made me smile are the same people who let my tears roll down my cheeks.

There is one feeling I hate to bear, have you denied yourself of letting out an emotion? Have you deprived yourself of the chance to just let out, let loose and run away? I’m guilty of all these, what’s that one feeling again? I say stupidity. I don’t mind being categorized as one.

I believe that a smile is a very effective mask. A mask can conceal hurt, pain, angst and jealousy. I can smile all day and conceal all these; of course, you wouldn’t know how I really feel deep within because you are blinded with my flashing smiles. It just feels sad to know that you never looked into the windows of my soul… my eyes. If you only cared to look me in my eyes, you would see all the emotions I’m keeping, sadness is very much visible. Now I wish for someone who would look into my soul and then, the world around me would become quiet. To wish is all I can do for the moment.

I don’t mind being inconsistent. I don’t mind jumping from one thought to another. Just like this collection of crap words, it is inconsistent. But now, I claim inconsistency is not something negative. It is the only consistent aspect of me at present.

Going back to love as an axis, I suddenly realized that the earth does not depend on its axis. But in this picture I have in mind, you are the axis of my life, yes I do not depend on you but I revolve around you. But you could also be the earth and I am the axis, you can exist without me and continue revolving.

I don’t mind jumping from one thought to another, just like this collection of crap words. I don’t mind being inconsistent, just like this collection of crap words.

I Heart You

I just realized, just now, YES! few seconds ago, that I just have to have faith in somebody sometimes...

I hope, it's all worth the risk, because I am betting almost all of me. Just hopin, it's all worth the deal.

Suicide

As Winston Churchill once said, courage is what it takes to stand up and speak; courage is also what it takes to sit down and listen.

So please do not ever try to mess up with a smart and fabulous people especially if that smart and fabulous person is surrounded with equally smart and fabulous friends.

...in our dictionary, we call that SUICIDE.

Shake You Down

Don’t let big problems stun you to inaction. You can rest. But you can’t stop. After catching your breath, stand up. And just put one foot in front of the other. If you can’t run, walk. If you can’t walk, limp. If you can’t limp, crawl. Just keep moving. And you will win.

I'm Not Your Superhuman... I'm Just Your Ordinary Boy!

No one is programmed to do the right thing all the time. No one. Mistakes are there to help us to be better people, stronger, smarter. Perfection is boring. No one wants anyone who's boring.

Burn yourself playing with fire... and then you heal... and wear the scars proudly.

Are You a Judge or a Painter?

Before you commit into a relationship, you should have both eyes wide open. But after, close one eye.

Let me elaborate my point, before you commit into a relationship, you should be very careful in evaluating your feelings. Check everything. Values. Background. Preferences. Reactions. Beliefs. Examine everything!

But after that, stop evaluating. Stop critiquing.

It’s now time to stop fixing the other person and start appreciating the entire person in his totality. Remove the robes of the courtroom judge. Instead, put on the robes of a painter capturing the beauty of a scene. An artist simply accepts what is and nurtures a gratitude for what is there.

When you accept the other person and become grateful for him, a great miracle happens: The person learns to accept himself too and thus bring healing of his Heart Wound. Changes begin to take place spontaneously.

You can never fix anyone.

Because fixing is an inside job. Never forced from the outside.
Yes, you should inspire. You should guide. You should teach. But you cannot force.
At the end of the day, the only thing you can do is to love the person by creating space for the other person to fix himself.

What You Like and What You Do Not Like Maybe One and the Same Thing

I have mixed feelings about my cellphone.
My relationship with my phone is ambivalent.
I like it and I don’t like it.
There are days when I think it’s the greatest invention since peanut butter. And there are days when I want to fling it into the mouth of a volcano.

Here’s what I noticed: The very features that I like are the very same features that I don’t like. Absurd but true.

Why do I like my phone? I like the fact that I can call up the 954 people in my phone directory anytime. Useful when I am trap inside the elevator, when I need an ear to listen or simply just appearing to be a mysterious jerk to your crush coz you do not have the guts to show up.

Why do I not like my phone? I don’t like the fact that these 954 people can call me up at anytime—even when I’m lying on a hammock in a tiny island far out in the Pacific Ocean.

Why do I like my phone? Because I can bring it everywhere I go.
Why do I not like my phone? Because I can bring it everywhere I go!

Question: Have you ever had the absurd experience of leaving your cellphone at home and having to make a U-turn to come back for it? Nuts, right? Cellphones are now like one of our kidneys. You can still survive if it gets lost, but it’ll be risky.
I repeat: The very things that I like are the very same things that I don’t like.
Funny, but this is also true with our relationship.

Its funny how the very thing that made you crazy for a person will be the very same thing that will drive you crazy in the years to come.

If you fell in love with your partner because she was bubbly and the life of the party, today, you want to zip her mouth so that there would be world peace.

If you fell in love with your partner because he was quiet, strong, and steady as a rock, today, you want to curse him for being so cold and unresponsive—like you’re talking to a rock.

If you fell in love with your partner because of her stunning beauty, today, you find yourself pulling your hair in the car, waiting for her because she takes 3 hours just to dress up and put on her make-up.

Remember: Every strength has a weakness.

A weakness is really a strength applied inappropriately. And the way I see it, We are all right in the wrong way!

You can’t have only one side of the coin. You have to have both.

Stop Trying to Fix People

You know what our monstrous mistake is?
We try to fix the people in our life.
I see people complain about the people in their life.

Wives complain about their husbands coz the husband eats too much.
Or the husband watches too much TV.
Or the husband does not have a one romantic bone in his body.


But husbands complain about their wives too coz their too extravagant.
Or the wife is always hysterical and historical. She remembers all the past mistakes of her husband, including date, time, and place.
Or the wife is so talkative. If the universe paid 1 centavo for every word his wife said, the husband would be the richest man in the world today.

Parents complain about their kids too coz they are too messy.
Or their kids cannot focus on their studies.
One mother said, “My kids are so lazy. If given a chance, they’ll ask someone to breathe for them.”

And everywhere I go, I also hear many kids ask to fix their parents.
“My parents are too strict.”
“My parents are too corny.”
“My parents are too tight.”
One girl said, “They allow me to swim only if I wear a long gown.”

All over the world, people want to fix people.

First of all, you want to fix people because you love them.
But sometimes, our motives aren’t pure. Sometimes, we want to fix our loved ones because of shame. We’re ashamed of what other people will say about our kids, our siblings, our spouses, and our parents.

Another reason of our “fixing other people” tendencies is we’re afflicted with the disease called comparisonities.

Humans like to look to the other side of the fence to see if it’s greener.
Someone told me that marriage is like going to a restaurant. After you ordered your dish, you learn what the other table ordered, and suddenly regret what you ordered.
Believe me, this urge to compare causes so much misery in marriages. If you always compare your wife’s body with Beyonce or Angelina Jolie, she can’t compete. Or if you compare your husband’s salary with Donald Trump’s earnings, he can’t compete. Many times, we compare our spouse to someone who doesn’t exist. For example, we fantasize about Hollywood stars who aren’t real. Because all their blemishes were removed by photoshop and a huge PR company.

Even the pretty officemate who seems so gorgeous on the outside may actually be your worst nightmare the moment you live with her. You really don’t fall in love with her. You fall in love with a projection of how you imagine her to be.

We have a tendency to compare our kids with other kids.
We even verbally share our comparisons in the hopes of motivating him.
I overheard one mother tell her little boy, “Junior, why can’t you get good grades like your sister? She gets straight A’s in all subjects. But you’re highest grades are Recess and Lunch.”

Parents compare their kids to their classmates, their cousins, and even to themselves when they were young. Their sermons begin with this famous line: “When I was young, I wasn’t like you…”

Kids cannot flourish in an environment where they are being judged. Kids flourish in an environment of appreciation.

All day long, we try to look for the faults of the people around us.
But behind this critical spirit towards others is really a critical spirit toward oneself. In fact, the critic pulls down others so that he can hide his own failures.

The Promise

I will reach your hand in the cold of winter.
I will reach for your hand in the heat of summer.
But if my short life cannot reach the dawn of spring,
I promise in heaven I reach you with my wings.

This Way to Happiness!

Other people's opinion about you does not have to become your reality. Those who follow the crowd usually get lost in it. I don't know the key to success but one key to failure is trying to please everyone.

So why waste your time thinking about what others think? Instead, follow and do what makes you happy.

3 Stages of Life

TEENS. You have all the time and energy but no money.
WORKING. You have the money and energy but no time.
OLDIES. You have the time and money but no energy.

Lesson: Enjoy life and all the things you have at the moment because you can't have everything ALL AT ONCE.

'Do You Really Love Me?' Top Answers

'Do You Really Love Me?'
You should know the answer to that.

'Do You Really Love Me?'
Yes. But not as much as when we first met.

'Do You Really Love Me?'
'Til the day after forever.

'Do You Really Love Me?'
If this is not love, then what is?

'Do You Really Love Me?'
Wait. I thought its just a one not stand?

'Do You Really Love Me?'
Shut up... and take-off that wedding gown... NOW.

'Do You Really Love Me?'
Define love? :p

TOP ANSWER
'Do You Really Love Me?'
After you cheated 5 times... After you left me twice... After you used my credit card to buy gifts for your flings... I'm still here, what do you think? :( (Ouch!)

World of Superficial

In the midst of all superficial flirting and lies, I still staunchly believe in honesty and good ole get-to-know-you-conversation. I really do!

It's Little Things Like That

Say 'That coat is expensive, but it suits you' rather than 'That coat suits you, but it's expensive'.

Mind Over Matter

I do not care what gadget you own, where you live. If you know someone who knows someone who knows someone. If your clothes are this year's cutting edge. If your trust fund is unlimited. If you are A-list B-list or never heard of you list.

I only care about the words that flutter in your mind. 'Coz they are the only thing you truly own. The only thing I choose to remember you by.

I will not fall in love with your bones and skin. Neither on the place you have been. I will not fall in love with anything but the words that flutter from your extraordinary mind.

Corinthians 13

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Half-Full Half-Empty

Half-Full. I am the worst person like you, in the same manner that you are the best person like me.

Half-Empty. Not all things you cannot understand is a lie and not all things you could understand is a fact.

With Pleasing Personality Please!

This world is really superficial, I just confirmed. People wanted people who are as beautiful as Jessica Alba or loving a person just because he break dance. But just like a cool breeze, it just passes by and after you realize all are gone... but what you commonly miss out is the source of everything that stays no matter what, the air.

My point is, I go for character instead, that is, people with pleasing personality, with good intentions and with pure heart. Choosing one out of many parameters of a pleasing personality, usually physical aspect, is a shallow investment. 5 years, 15 years or 30 years later, these heartthrobs will smell like curry and look like prata but the heart of good intentions never die. Believe me.

Good Morning World

This morning a friend of mine asked me, why I choose to be a morning person. I replied, simply because I want to extend my life a little bit longer than what the nature has been set for me.

Shakespeare in Love

You never choose falling in-love. Its a matter of gravitational pull that you can't say UP if you really are falling. And if you are brave enough to accept the risks of happiness or sadness, whichever the future may offer,don't blame your heart if you fell out of place. If you are good enough in anatomy, your heart only beats to send oxygen-rich blood through all parts of your body so that it can function properly. Now, if you're blaming your brain cell as it dies alone, you are still wrong because you have two braincells, the other one kills the other. Remember, happiness is measured on how you accepted reality and not by blaming your heart, your brain, your lungs, your pancreas even your sex organ. Just accept the fact, that your life is your own responsibility. Life is about taking risks.

Lifeaholics, it is better to fail in trying than to succeed by doing nothing.

Sometime in Fall

I think that perhaps we always fall in love the very first time we see the person of our dreams, even though, at the time, reason may be telling otherwise, and we may fight against that instinct, hoping against hope that we won't win, until there comes a point when we allow ourselves to be vanquished by our feelings.

The time of that fall contained every worthwhile moment I had ever lived.

Dump NOT On Me

Many people are like garbage trucks. They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full of anger, and full of disappointment. As their garbage piles up, they look for a place to dump it. And if you let them, they'll dump it on you. So when someone wants to dump on you, don't take it personally. Just smile, wave and wish them well, and move on. Believe me, you'll be happier.

The mark of your success is how quickly you can refocus on what's important in your life.

The Metaphor of Life

I've stumbled on the side of twelve misty mountains,
I've walked and I've crawled on six crooked highways,
I've stepped in the middle of seven sad forests,
I've been out in front of a dozen dead oceans,
I've been ten thousand miles in the mouth of a graveyard,

I saw a newborn baby with wild wolves all around it
I saw a highway of diamonds with nobody on it,
I saw a black branch with blood that kept drippin',
I saw a room full of men with their hammers a-bleedin',
I saw a white ladder all covered with water,
I saw ten thousand talkers whose tongues were all broken,
I saw guns and sharp swords in the hands of young children,

I heard the sound of a thunder, it roared out a warnin',
Heard the roar of a wave that could drown the whole world,
Heard one hundred drummers whose hands were a-blazin',
Heard ten thousand whisperin' and nobody listenin',
Heard one person starve, I heard many people laughin',
Heard the song of a poet who died in the gutter,
Heard the sound of a clown who cried in the alley,

I met a young child beside a dead pony,
I met a white man who walked a black dog,
I met a young woman whose body was burning,
I met a young girl, she gave me a rainbow,
I met one man who was wounded in love,
I met another man who was wounded with hatred,

Where the people are many and their hands are all empty,
Where the pellets of poison are flooding their waters,
Where the home in the valley meets the damp dirty prison,
Where the executioner's face is always well hidden,
Where hunger is ugly, where souls are forgotten,
Where black is the color, where none is the number,

And I'll tell it and think it and speak it and breathe it,
And reflect it from the mountain so all souls can see it,
Then I'll stand on the ocean until I start sinking.

Sad Reality About Love

'Sometimes the right thing for one person is the wrong thing for someone else.'

And a friend asked me, why only 'sometimes'?

I answered back with another sad reality, "Just because you love that person too much, you're learning how to tolerate and even to be fool, as you are sometimes accepting to share for the love with the right one just to be spared for the right thing."

Friendship in Love

It is important that whoever becomes your partner,
above all, should also be your good friend.
Let's admit, there comes a point that romance will be gone,
but the friendship of the couple still remains.

Overwork

How much more money do you need to make you happy?

Movie Catch

Catch No. 1. Be careful with what you will say.
Because sometimes, people say things
that they don't really mean.
Just because they feel something
at a particular moment.

Catch No. 2. I agree to the fact, to show someone you care
you have not to harass that person with love and affection.

Catch No. 3. 'It's not enough that you accept me for what I am.
You also have to accept me for what I'm not.'

Honesty

But I don't want some pretty face
to tell me pretty lies.
All I want is someone to believe.

Honesty is hardly ever heard.
And mostly what I need from you.

Equality: A Matter of Mindset

When you're struggling with something, look at all the people around you and realize that every single person you see is struggling with something, and to them, it's just as hard as what you're going through.

Somewhere in My Past

I met you just tonight but I keep wondering why,
it seems I have always known you all my life.
I held you only once but I keep wondering why,
it seems I have held you forever.
I kissed you only once but I keep wondering why,
it seems I have kissed your lips so many times.
I know you only now but I keep wondering why,
it seems I have known you forever.

Can it be true?
Could I be wrong?

... that somewhere in my past I fell in love with you.
... and somewhere in my past there was also me and you.

Just the Way You Are

I like your sophistication,
I love your simplicity.
I like when you say hi,
I love your undying attention.
I like it when we are together,
I love it when we hold close.
I like the way you show affection,
I love it when you care.
I like when you see the best of me,
I love your acceptance of my flaws.
I like it when I see you smile,
I love it when its for me.
I like it when I miss you,
I love it when I love you.

Crossroad

In the middle,
I see both ends of the world.
At the top,
I see the vision of my being.
But now,
I am here at the corner of my life...
defying gravity,
crossroad that is.

And the next best thing,
is yet to reveal.

The Tale of the Last Prince

Once upon a time....












And they live happily ever after.

Footprints in the Sand

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.

This bothered me because I noticed
that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.

So I said to the Lord,
“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, you have not been there for me?”

The Lord replied,
“The times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand,
is when I carried you.”

Reflection

When you speak, honesty is important.
Deceitful words and lies are not allowed.
Rather than talking too much, it is better to speak less.
Speak the truth. Do not twist the facts.
Cunning words, foul language and bad habits
must be avoided at all costs.

What you have not seen with your own eyes,
Do not readily tell to others.
What you do not know for sure,
Do not easily pass on to others.

When asked to do something that is inappropriate or bad,
Do not promise lightly.
If you do, you will be wrong either way.

When speaking, make the words clear and to the point.
Do not talk too fast or mumble.
Some like to talk about the good points of others.
While some like to talk about the faults of others.

If it is none of your business, do not get involved.
When you see others do good deeds,
Think about following their example.

Even tough your own achievements are still far behind those of others,
You are getting closer.

When you see others do wrong,
Immediately reflect upon yourself.
If you have made the same mistake, correct it.
If not, be extra cautious not to make the same mistake.

When your morals, conduct, knowledge and skills,
are not good as others,
You should encourage yourself to be better.

Start the new year right life-a-holics!

Random Thoughts

Food: Western
Color: Green, Blue and Purple
Singer: Neyo (Year of the Gentleman Album)

Are ya kind? Selective kindness. But in terms of material things, I am kind of giving and sharing.

Whats your favorite thing in your bag? My notebook, I guess. Its my life.

What was the last thing that you heard that pissed you off? Can I give a paradox answer? Haha. Maybe unexpected silence.

Can you dance? Yes. Lol. But No. Haha. I reserve this dance to my future ehem.

One word to describe you right now? Stranded.

What's your favorite thing to do? Cycling, camping, thinking... working zzzz.

Are you happy now? There's lacking but nearly complete. I hope soon, I would. Anybody wants to offer to complete me? Lol. You can reach me at 929XXXX. Lol!

What is in mind at the moment? Complicated things. (Coz im confused mah!)

Do you know someone who likes you? Haha. So teeny question. Lol. YES! Whoa! Haha.

Who's your enemy in your house? Nah! I'm a good boi!

Do you like unexpected visitors? Never. But with very few exceptions. Selected people only.

What will make you smile at night? My star above. :) Really, I do have.

Do you jam a lot? Inside my room :)I am a homebody.

Who are your companions when you jam? Mac and Me... and I. Haha. Emo :)

Do you easily fall in-love? Next question please. Haha. Sh***t.

Do you sometimes get angry at yourself? Yea :( For some uncontrollable involuntary things I ought to do and feel but I can't fight and say NOOOOOOO! Dooooonnnnttt!

Did you ever cry in front of a person? Yes :) I don't mind. It won't make u a lesser man.

Are you sweet? I hope I am. One thing I am sure about, I am sincere when I do things.

Do you like pissing people? You have my attention if I am interested with you. So if I am pissing you, you know what it means.. haha.. but don't over analyzed yea. haha.

Did someone already hurt you? Yes :( And its called Karma?

Was there someone who almost committed suicide because of you? Next question.

What do you like the most - autumn, winter, spring or summer? Spring

Is life treating you fair? Sometimes yes. Sometimes no. Maybe. Argh.

Do you sing? Yea. Practicing. Reserved to my future ehem.

Do you pray? I love GOD. Im HIS No. 1 fan!

Blah! Blah! Blah!

Towering Lovers

They met on a perfect day.
They seemed perfect for each other.
And it was the perfect time to fall in love.
It was the perfect love story.
But can there really be a perfect love story?

The Sound of Silence

Tonight is an isolated night amongst others. The sky is starry like tiny lights inviting for a party. My star up there stands out as it glows brighter than the others. I am happy that tonight it regains its glow. It survived the night even with the absence of the moonlight. That's how I stand out tonight.

This heartbeat melodiously envelopes the background. It dominates the sound of silence tonight along with the waves in the river and the blows of the wind here at the beach.

Tonight is indeed an isolated night amongst others.

The Mask of a False Lover

Life and love always joke at me. I assume. There comes a point in my life when everything seems so well and good, each morning is a promise, so amazing and yet at the end of the day I realized it just fooled me. Yes, it deceives me several times.

How can I ease the pain if the only medicine that can cure me is also the medicine that poisons me. What a big paradox. Traumatic love as they say, and sometimes its even unbearable.

It turned my days into nights. Sometimes, hoping not for another traumatic days to come. But, I realized that life is worth fighting for and love is not worth dying, for a person who doesn't even deserve from the start. There will always be a masks unrevealed for every person. Deceiving. Unpredictable. So, I should just learn and thankful for making me stronger by making me fall... fall out of place.

Now, I may hardly move on, its still fresh, but I believe that life has an inter-connected happenings that would lead me towards my destined eternal happiness.

And then... I write another story of my life and love and i hope this time it deceives no more.

My Valentine Dream

Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.

Like my grandparents, they had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from their branches they found that they were one tree and not two.

My Valentine Dream.

Compassion. Obsession. Diffusion.

These are the 3 factors you have to deal with when you made a decision to love. You have to be compassionate with your partner, if not, what's the point of loving?

Compassion signifies oneness. In a relationship, I believe, two individuals fuse as one. You love your partner without knowing why or how, you just love unconditionally. You share even you don't have anything, you give even without taking..

Along the way, without actually knowing it, you become obsess to your partner.. you'll never let a day pass without seeing him or her; you talk over the phone without recognizing the passing of time, you text till you both drop to sleep." and that's not all to it, you still chat over instant messaging, and you are connected in online communities like, Facebook, Friendster and Multiply.. and when you are together somewhere, there's no urge to go home even if it's already too late and you keep on saying goodbye but no one wanted to leave first and when you actually parted ways, you miss each other as if you never spent long hours together.. Obsession or not? Your partner never leaves your mind, whatever you do, wherever you are, so there, obsession.

But it has been said that some good things never last, no matter how colorful and promising your love life is, just like any relationships in history, it is bound to end and take its final bow. Here comes diffusion. You have to learn to detach yourself from anything that would remind you of your partner and even to him or her.. That's the way things has to be.. "letting go was never an easy thing" and "letting go was just another way of saying I will always love you so".. You simply have to let go and get hurt, get hurt until it hurts no more. Nights will be spent wondering what went wrong in your relationship, hugging your pillow so tight wishing you're together again, and you'll wake up feeling so alone and cursing the sun why it still dawned on you, wanting darkness to envelope you for eternity since losing your partner means death, and yes, we all died for so many times in our lives.

Weekdays

On Monday, I say hi.
You return back with a smile.
Heart rate increases
Temperature rises
Enjoying the night
Love at first sight.

On Tuesday, you say hi.
I return back with a smile.
Conversations flourish
Similarities unleash
Conflicts are on the same ground
Love on the second round.

On Wednesday, we say hi.
We return back with a smile.
Gravity is uncontrollable.
Intensity is insatiable.
Things are on its full blow.
Love on the third row.

On Thursday, I say hi.
I hear no reply.
Paranoia boggles my mind.
Maybe you need more time?
I could hardly tell.
Love on the fourth level.

On Friday, I realize
How could I be so blind?
With this feeling I have inside.
Is rushing like a suicide
Commitment is not a race.
Love on its deciding phase.

On Monday, we find attraction.
On Tuesday, a lavishing attention
On Wednesday, an intensifying passion
On Thursday, an intimate contradiction
On Friday, a commitment of delusion
But on weekends, may we find our final destination?

The Indestructible Lover

I believe that in order for you to be totally happy, you need to give yourself a little respect. I believe in order for you to appreciate things more, you have to give yourself a little more time.I believe that the most exciting things on earth are just simple things and you just tend to ignore them as they are overshadowed by a lot of complications boggling your mind. I believe that when things aren’t meant to be, even how much effort you exert, it will never change things. I believe that one of the most humiliating things on earth is to beg a person to love you back. And another degrading thing would be a person to love you out of pity or just-for-fun or may be for that time-being-alone-and-afterwards-forget-about-it. I believe that was not love after all.

I accept the fact that not all things you want it would be given to you. I accept the fact that I am too stupid to love you by losing my self-esteem. I accept the fact that even you do not care at all, I am still here waiting for some attention from you. I accept the fact that I care about you even though I do not see any sign of any concern from you. I accept the fact that I might already love you but I accept the fact that would only be a wishful thinking.

But I believe that there will come a time that I grow tired doing all of these to you. I believe, as the song goes, there will come a time that I won’t even be there for you, I will be happy somewhere, even if I still care. I believe someone will come my way to teach me on how to respect myself by giving me that person’s unconditional love which from a very long time I expected from you. I accept the fact that I may be stupid now by loving you but sooner and later I will be fine and get up from my fall and stand a better indestructible lover.